REMEMBER:

You are worthy
of a second chance,
of a new day,
a new life.

“There’s no doubt you can be a recovering/recovered addict but you constantly have to be aware that the inclination is there and proactively avoid situations that threaten to pull you back in to the hell of addiction. It is a part of your authentic self (whether it is a genetic or learned behavior) and has to be managed and paid close attention too. I’ve heard it does get easier the longer you are abstinent, but when the crazy train rolls through your head, which it will from time to time, you have to opt to not board.”

Stop making excuses. 
Stop saying you can’t do it.

This is not a hopeless battle
and you are not a helpless victim.  

I am kicking at the darkness. 

Things can still be good. 

I saw the monster in me - hiding in the dark. 
”You can stop hiding now.” I whispered.
I grabbed her by the hand
and sent her out into the light.
”We can recover. We do recover.” I promised,
and then I locked the door behind me. 

“Desire is the starting point of all achievement, not a hope, not a wish, but a keen pulsating desire which transcends everything.” - Napoleon Hill

A man falls into a hole so deep he can’t get out. A doctor walks by, and the man calls for help. The doctor writes a prescription, tosses it into the hole, and walks on. A priest walks by, and the man tries again. The priest writes a prayer, tosses it into the hole, and walks on. Finally a friend walks by, and again the man asks for help. To his surprise, the friend jumps in with him. “Why did you do that?” the man asks. “Now we’re both in the hole.” “Yes,” the friend responds. “But I’ve been in this hole before, and I know the way out.”

There is unbelievable darkness,
but also infinite light.

Which will you choose to walk in?

I have been redeemed.
I have been rescued. 
I have been saved.

Without my God,
I would not be alive.