I am remembering:
it is okay to be in a place of struggle.
Struggle only means that I do not like where I am at and am fighting to make it better.
Struggle is not something to be ashamed of, it is something to be proud of.
THE VISION IS RECOVERY.
THE VISION IS HOPE.
THE VISION IS LOVE.
THE VISION IS TO BREAK THE LIES.
THE VISION IS A FIGHT AGAINST PAIN.
THE VISION IS PEOPLE GIVING UP ADDICTION.
THE VISION IS PEOPLE KNOWING THEY ARE MEANT TO LIVE.
THE VISION IS PEOPLE SEEKING HELP.
THE VISION IS PEOPLE STAYING ALIVE.
Recovery is not easy,
it is never going to be easy.
It is a fight, day after day -
it will never stop.
However, with time, we get stronger;
our skin becomes a little tougher,
our swords a little sharper.
Armed and ready,
we go into battle.
We rise and we fight.
We fight and we win.
Relapse does not ruin your chances of ever getting better again.
Pick yourself up and start again.
PERSONAL NOTE:
Last night I broke and needed a coping mechanism -
I smoked a black and mild, and another one today.
While it was not a cigarette, nicotine is nicotine.
Two years and eight months lost,
but I will not go backwards…
I will move forward from here.
I hate that I think
“I am not worthy of love.”
I’ve let myself down.
I woke up
and got out of bed.
That is worth something.
I am having strong urges to make self destructive decisions. I know it will pass but it just kinda sucks right now.
I would greatly appreciate any inspiration/support/kick in the butt.
Thanks in advance.
I am working on getting unstuck.
I forced myself out of the house,
still trying to get out of my head.
I will keep fighting.
I will not give up.
It gets better than this.
I am feeling stuck and like I need a coping mechanism. I am not feeling too healthy.
"When things are tough, just remember;
