I have to get my butt up from in front of this computer.
I am taking a break from homework and tumblr;
That’s when you really know I’m burnt out.
be nice to me?
I will see the healing in the midst of my pain.
I will search for peace when I find myself alone.
I will find hope at the end of my rope.
I will welcome the sunrise after the darkness.
Today, I will not wallow in my self-pity
or let my disease consume me…
I WILL NOT GIVE IN, I will not give up,
because I know that I am better than that.
I need to feel like I matter.
I am not okay at all.
However, I am still clean…
I am reminding myself to keep breathing,
no matter how hard it gets.
Most importantly, I am still alive.
That is what matters most,
that I just keep going……..
WHOA, hold up - wait a minute.
I am broken, I am learning, I am hurting, I am struggling -
and just for this moment, I have to read my own words.
I have to believe that the things I tell you are ALSO true for me.
I am good enough, I am beautiful, I am worth it.
I am able, I AM FREE - these chains do NOT bind me.
I am in recovery, and I have to take it just one second at a time.
I cant expect too much of myself - a trigger is a trigger.
I am breathing, in and out - just for the moment.
I am weak, but right now - I have to remember that I can be strong.
I have to tell myself that this too will pass, and I will be better for it.
**BREATHE, Liza, BREATHE**